Thoughts

Ultimately, I am not afraid to be wrong. I think that you always have to be like a child, questioning everything. The moment you think you know it all is when you are basically dead.

Out of all the things to oversimplify, arguably the worst thing to do is thinking you fully understand the meaning of life. I barely know it myself.

I am not saying anything you don’t already know. If you happened to forget it, well now you are remembering it.

The universe at its core, or what you might call God, is extremely humorous and playful. If you ever start making jokes to yourself and crack yourself up, that is about as close to God you will get in your day to day life.

There are going to be some days when I read over my blog and feel like I am straight up lying. But I have gone through enough to not be afraid to know what I know. And that is sort of the reason why I started this blog anyway.

You have to have a truly ridiculous amount of trust in everything if you are still breathing, at least if you still believe that you will wake up the next morning with your job, loved ones, and sanity intact. Most people just do not recognize it.

Some people feel extremely strong in times of disempowerment. I believe just as strongly that you also have to feel just as weak in times of empowerment. Because when you feel strong, you can’t help but remember all those times you felt like nothing was going right.

I think asking really simple questions is cool. A lot of people have assumed that I have no idea about the topic at hand, but I just want to see what you think.

To all the people who believed I was contrarian for the sake of being contrarian, that was all I knew how to do. There was no other option to even be contrarion with.

I think that a part of me knows that I went way off course with where I intended to be. And that is somehow okay. You can make it out to be some game to get to a certain destination as fast as possible, but ultimately there is no rush. You always end up at the same place: right here, right now.

I have given up on expectations almost entirely. It is so finicky. If it does not work out you feel let down. If it works out, well, you already expected it.

We all deserve to be recognized for all the things we do. It is not at all surprising that we are capable of so many amazing things, but every little thing we do is a genuine achievement. In the same vein that we can take a lot of things for granted, we can also undervalue all the hard work we did to have those things in the first place. For that reason, a genuine compliment, no matter what anyone else thinks, will always be one of the best things you can do in life.

Possibly the worst mistake you can make is believing that you do not desire what you desire.

Deep down, I could never judge anyone. I did not come this far in life to think that I could never do what someone else did given their circumstances. Even in moments of judgement, because they will naturally happen, you almost have to have a sense of apathy immediately afterward. So what if someone did something?

It is okay to not see someone the same way you used to. It is okay to no longer have them in your life. It is okay to be okay and not be okay. People change. We change.

If my happiness meant that I would be completely misunderstood by everyone on the planet, I would gladly take it. You can be surrounded by people and feel completely alone.

Psychoanalyzing anyone is easy. You just observe people. But you eventually realize it’s pointless anyway. You don’t even like what you see. If you like life, stop trying to read people’s minds and leave the games at a chess board.

If you are even remotely spiritual, please do not push it away. I know it can be scary and daunting, but it is a part of you now. At the same time, please do not ignore your mind and body. You are here for a reason after all.

If you want to be someone interesting, you have to be much more interesting than interested. At some point, you’ve got to take off the training wheels of observing other people and start the process of doing what they’re doing.

Shoutout to the people who knew that they had to leave what they had to leave behind.

Nothing will ever completely prepare you in life for what is ahead. There is no curriculum, no guidebook carefully delineating what you need to know or do. Life was perfectly designed that way. You just look at whatever is in front of you and proceed.

Everyone has a story worth listening to. If you are able to get people who do not believe this to share their story, you will soon become part of that story.

If you have everyone trying to fill out the correct multiple choice answer on Scantrons their entire adolescent life, people start treating life like it is some sort of test. You don’t have to constantly feel like you have to do this thing and that thing to feel good about yourself. You never have to feel like life is some sort of test. You are enough.

Science does a really good job of describing the big things. But once you look smaller nothing makes sense. It all falls apart, and in that you have to look elsewhere.

It would be incredibly easy to go through life with a single point of focus, to disregard everything and everyone when the same might have been done to you. And yet, you cannot bulldoze forever. You either learn it the hard way or by simply recognizing that life will always be incredibly multifaceted.

I thought about the idea of focusing only on the empowering aspects of life, with so much discussion on the dark and negative already. However, I realized that by completely ignoring the undesirable, one denies what undeniably exists. It may not be my focus, but no part can fall into total ignorance.

If you are ever grieving something, you cannot skip anything. You have to go through it all. You can tell because everything finally ends.

If I could give my past self one piece of advice, it is that there is no advice I can give you that would really help you. Somehow, someway, you are going to make it through whatever is along your journey through life. All because of you. You have made it so far and you have no idea.

You have to stand for something. At a certain point, you realize that you are what you are, and that you have things to say. Otherwise, you take in everything everyone else is saying. Any pretense of being okay with accepting anything vanishes when facing opinions you do not identify with.